December 13 2008

Two years ago on December 13 2006 I received terrible news of a major cancer recurrence. Last year on this date, I wrote about that day in 2006 and said that I hoped to be able to write about it again the following year. Well, against big odds, here I am. Health wise I should be thankful. I have had no evidence of disease for 14 months. I feel thankful, but not without reservations. This disease/treatment (yes, I’m still on chemo and other medications) has zapped my energy and makes me feel like I have the body of someone 25 to 30 years older than my actual chronological age. It’s wearing and frustrating. On the other hand, I’ve had some great experiences this past year. I’ve enjoyed good times and visits with family and friends. I’ve seen a few good movies and read some terrific books. I’ve been trying to think longer term, but am currently stuck in somewhat of a physical and mental rut. One doctor this year said I was being too hard on myself. Her intensions were good, but it angered me (you probably had to be there) and pushed me to an improved state. This past year has been better and easier than the year before. I’m committed to figuring out a longer term plan for myself next quarter and making 2009 better than 2008.

Enjoy the holidays. Thanks for checking in and take care of yourself.